60 minutes ago I found myself barefoot and slow dancing in my kitchen with a three year old.
She wanted to be held.
Slow down. Hold her.
We didn't speak.
Minutes earlier I had been making dinner with Pandora---my sole companion.
I began to cry.
She noticed.
I told her I was happy.
She smiled and squeezed my neck.
Someday when she's older, I will hear the song again and remember the night
Talia's three, almost four year old self, held onto me in the kitchen.
This night, when our song chose us.
Edited:
9:41 pm...
The past two hours have been tough ones. I have been parentally challenged, to say the least. Timeouts, crying, and sulking...and that's just me. Just thought you should know.
Thursday, September 29, 2011
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Love that song. And love those moments. :)
ReplyDeleteAnd, now I am crying. Love it.
ReplyDeleteOh what a beautiful song... I am praying for you tonight. I'm sorry it has been a rough one.
ReplyDeletelove how you put that: parentally challenged :) so know what that means. great job stopping yourself for the moment. love adele. lots.
ReplyDeleteThat's the insanity and joy of parenthood -- it can be beautiful one moment, and crazy the next.
ReplyDeleteAnd when she is older,
ReplyDeleteand you're remembering your song,
you won't at all remember
the time outs and the pouting and the challenges.
Just the happy.
xo,
Keri
I love those memory making moments ... thanks for sharing ... you gave me goosebumps :)
ReplyDeletebeauty and joy in the little moments... love!
ReplyDeletei agree with keri when you remember that song you will only remember the joy.
Love this post. It resembles my life- tenderness one moment, frustration the next.
ReplyDeleteGlad Bruce is back! Whenever Eric is gone all I can think about is "how do single parents do it??" ....love Adele.
ReplyDeleteIt's been a while since I heard that song ... it meant a lot to me a few years back ... it's special. Hope today is a happy one :)
ReplyDeletelove you kimberlee.
ReplyDeleteparenting is crazy hard and awesome and exhausting and amazing all at once.
adele is in strong rotation over here.
almost daily.
I'm praying for you, sweet friend. Sometimes that sounds so empty. But please know I'm covering you in prayer, asking for His peace to flow like a river!! Love you.
ReplyDeletethis is one of those moments.
ReplyDeletegod was building you up for those rotten hours ahead and making sure you were feeling his hug. he used your daughter to love you.
don't you just wish you could put a frame around those moments so you could go back and look at them and memorize them.
because inevitably the next moment will be challenging.
you are so special kimberlee. im really glad i met you.
I can relate. My daughter, who is my baby, who was diagnosed with autism last year had a great day today. She couldn't stop hugging and loving on me telling me how much she loved me, but then there are the hard days that fill me with self doubt and feeling frustrated. I agree with Shauna - I think God sustains us with the joyous moments.
ReplyDeleteI love the added edit. I love that you're keeping it real. Thank you for that
ReplyDeletebeautiful. thanks for sharing, this blessed my heart. xo
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